April 6th: Exams and the Hunger Games

So I am feeling a mix of feelings right now. I mean I’m happy that exams are finally, finally over after the last two weeks of intense ordeal - which mainly came in the form of insufficient preparation-related stress in which I was seriously driven completely insane by. Like if my mental state of being was a flower I would have totally withered. Wait, crap that’s a bad analogy. Especially since the flower analogy is used for something else. Which I am definitely not talking about. Who even uses that analogy anymore anyway? It’s so ridiculously patriarchal and archaic. Nevertheless I definitely am not talking about that. So coming with that context of insufficient preparation related stress I am also feeling a little bit of horror right now mixed with relief. Is that even possible to feel simultaneously? It’s like my completely horrible evaluative statement the other day in my Modern exam on assessing the extent to which the Depression caused the Weimar Republic’s collapse. Instead of writing - like any rational person whose teacher has drilled them 100 times to EVALUATE in every question because apparently the BOS values our opinions (on the appearance of one anyway) - the actual extent like say “to a great extent” or to a “small extent”, I wrote - “to a moderately significant extent the Depression led to the Weimar Republic’s demise”. Is “demise” even really the most appropriate word? And what the heck does “moderately significant” mean? For some reason while I was writing it I felt quite clever but in hindsight not so much. My superiority complex was both delusive and not at all conducive to my exam technique.

 Moving on, there was also the Extension Maths exam. I have never felt more miserable in a maths exam than that exam. It was horrible and all manners of terrible. Feelings of absolute failure and the inherent superiority of my fellow Ext Maths-ers around me taking the exam were predominant. While I knew my exams were then and I had time to prepare for it while doing other assessments as well I didn’t because I always felt like it was this upcoming thing y’know? Like it feels like this thing that isn’t really real until I’m actually in the exam room and feeling absolutely terrible for preparing so insufficiently for it.

So in conclusion, while I may not have performed my best in these exams it has taught me the realistic need to study.

Other things I’ve been doing recently:new job and WATCHED THE HUNGER GAMES (so excited for that)
Went with Mim, KT, Ally-wa and Luke to celebrate the end of exams on Thursday after my Japanese exam. It was SO FREAKING GOOD. Like seriously as novel to film adaptions go, that was amazing good. The cast, Peeta and Katniss were complete adorableness, the set, the costumes, the acting, the script, the composition and as my friend commented (which may or may not be slightly paraphrased) “the ability to pull off a romantic subplot in a post-apocalyptic plotline”. His comment is also quite credible coming from an Ext English student who has been studying Genre conventions over the last term. He know his subplots. (<—- lol that would be such a weird “That’s what she said” joke)

aren't they the cutest <3

We went shopping before the movie (excl. Luke who did not feel particularly inclined towards going clothes shopping with us) and I may or may not have indulged in underserved retail therapy haha…I found these really cute pink short shorts and a white short sleeve top with some American college print at Jay Jays and at Temt I got these 2 cute lacey tops. Mim found a really pretty aqua dress at Ally and KT bought some jeans at Jay Jays. The only one who came out of that trip empty-handed and pockets full (or in their original state XD) was Ally-wa who I don’t think got anything haha. And also discovered there is now a ICE store at Erina!! Turns out thats what kicked Nova out haha. We didn’t get a chance to go however as we were late for the movie by the time we discovered it and I STILL haven’t had a chance to go over since Thursday as I was been working all day yesterday and from 7am to 2pm today. Which leads me to my second thing.

Another new thing: new job!

So I’ve been working recently at a bakery/coffee shop and its been really fun just working not with the family business like I have been used to. One of the things that also surprised when I first started working (whereas before I was just looking for a job and putting in resumes for ages) is the fact that when you have a job - you actually have to work. Like not just go to work and come home sort of thing. Which was this whole weird, completely unwholistic understanding I had of what-having-a-job means. But other than that it hasn’t been too bad. I really enjoy just working off the beach front and just selling coffee and cake is a nice way to pass the time. And the owners are really nice as well so its quite a nice place to work.

So now I’ve a nice 2 weeks ahead of me in which I hope to catch up on my notes, earn some money and possibly do a photo shoot with Mim, KT and Ally-wa and Paige (which should be really fun! I’m excited), go on a picnic and attend the Tanken Centre workshop for Japanese in the second week so that should be fun.

Okay I better get started on my Wiemar Republic notes for Modern, signing off!

Also I'm back to translating a small segment of my blog posts in Japanese for practice. Or the basic point of it anyway haha.

１年間日本語を勉強しているとて、私の日本語はまだとてもわるんですね。だから、私に許してください！＾＾；

このポスートは日本語で：

今、たくさんの感じを感じる。ついにしけんの時が追われるよかった。書いていた近代的な歴史とエーステンの数学のしけんはとくにむずかしくて紛らわしかった。 

ほかに私は最近していることは：友達と一緒に映画館に行った。

最近も、ハンガーゲームという新しい映画を見た。すごくおもしろくてすごいかった。見た映画の前に， アリワとカーチとミリアームと一緒に買い物をした。買い物は楽しかったで、私はすごくかわいいピンクな半ズボンや、T―シャツや二つのかわいいシャツを買いた。

もうひとつ新しいこと：あたらしいアルバイト！ 

最近私も喫茶店で仕事中をしていた。うっているコーヒーとケーギはすぎる手段はいいでした。 

OK,今私は歴史を勉強しなきゃ、じゃあね！ あなたは日本人またわ日本語は上手だと、したいと、私に正してください！私はほんとうに有難いこと〜★　メーセジは大丈夫！！また、私のへたな日本語を許してください。